| "Shackled
to a post, she wriggles around, trying in vain to adjust herself in her uncomfortable
crouching position. She likes to play to the camera, exaggerating her movements. When I
call her on it, she admits as much. She says struggling is fun. I listen to her talk about
herself, distracted; my mind is on what I can do to make this harder for her. I want to
make her struggle for real. I tell her to take off her heels so she has to crouch on the
balls of her feet. Now she's suffering. She quickly requests the vibrator. I can
tell she's used to being in control of her scenes. She won't be in
control today. I tell her the vibrator will wait. She can come if she works for it." |
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